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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

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I will still post what I wanted to post today, when I was writing out my draft in class (bay saw it!) but it will be in another post!
(Listen to this song when you are reading this. It is so just nice that it was playing this song when I type this...Sarang Hal Gge, found at the bottom part of the playlist...it reflects my mood...)

...I suppose to be quite happy today...until something happened just right after school........maybe I shouldnt have step into the class at that point of time.....maybe I shouldnt....I should have talked to my friend longer....then I wont see that scene and hear those words....

People around me are so scary, they may be smiling to you but actually they are not. They may seem friendly to you but actually is just the opposite of it. 知人知面不知心....笑里藏刀....it gives me creeps~~~

It is just so hard to ignore all those things that people say. The feeling is strange. I have never ever felt like this before. Not ever in my life I doubt myself so much. Previously was a challenge for me to make a decision, and I sort of regret it the next day. I tried my best to convince myself that it was a decision that I made by myself after all. And now here comes another. I am uncertain that I still have enough strength to overcome this. I am exhausted...but I know I cannot be because there are still so many things waiting for me to do.

I have mixed emotions now, worries, nervousness....'Is either you private it or you delete that post!', 'Is your own blog you can do whatever you want!', '...but whatever decision you make, 后果自负...' these are just some of the comments I got. '...but by privating the blog, is as if you are in the wrong...' haix...so you all should know what is my final decision. Yes, I private it...

I dont understand why?! Is just a blog with a normal post which doesnt hurt anyone, am I in the wrong?...maybe I am... I have never been put into this kind of situation in my life, at least not hearing a big group of people gossiping at the same time about me...especially one which is named on the previous post.

Well I bet you are puzzled about what I am talking about. Well basically is just that I always thought that my blog was low profile, no one will come and visit it. Surprisingly until today then I know that the most recent thing in my class was to go dig for my blog. The previous post might have contributed to it I guess...I am not sure if it was right to link people without telling them but all I could say that it was for my own convenience. It is not like I dont want my classmates to view it, is just that i dont want HER to view it. Bad things spread at an unbelievable speed.

Oh well, I shall end here today and to people who are reading this post now, a very big thank you to you as this is now an officially private blog. You people are the ones that make me still believe that there is still people that I can trust on and believe in. I am not sure when is this thing going to end but I hope that it is as soon as possible....
why does this thing have to happen to me?~~~ can anyone help me?~~

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