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Saturday, September 20, 2008

[[An unforgettable incident....]]

It has been 4 days already....4 days I have not been studying and eoys is just 3 days from now....how?! It is not that I dont want to study, is just that I cant concentrate because that matter is distracting me....No matter how hard I try not to think about it, it just keep poping out of nowhere.

Just how many times I am going to cry over this and yet the person still can concentrate in her studies and turning everyone against me, planting spies around me...and you scolded the f***ers at me yesterday out loud, just because you cant see the chem CA results that I have put in between your table and my table. After that there was like the eng CA results passing around and yet after you signed you just purposely passed it to another person. If you can scold me the f*** word just because you cant see the chem paper then why do you have to purposely dont let me sign for the eng one? you are like just scolding yourself right? Why do you have to make the class split into half? Why do you want people to choose either they stand at your side or my side? WHY??! Our class is already not bonded enough, there is only slight improvement after the camp, so why now do you still have to make everyone caution of what they are saying? Both of us are in the wrong. I am wrong because in the first place I am so dump for not thinking that this is a blog, anyone can come and view, I didnt expect my classmates to come and view it because I never told them that I have a blog! So I shouldnt have put up that post.

However the person who spreaded it around is in the wrong too. If you knew that this is going to be a big issue why must you still tell her? You can just keep quiet about it, in the first place why must you tell her what I wrote when you are not so close to her after all and is only because of the incident then you all are...Althoug you are not the direct person who told her but after that you were the one who give her 'updates' as quoted. Can I still believe what you say on that telephone call? What you are doing doesnt tele to waht you are saying.....I am not saying that you have to help me but are you helping us to resolve the conflict between me and her? It means that you are standing on the neutral line and not siding anyone. Are you? Looking at you 2 changing place sitting at the back yesterday, it will make people think otherwise...

Finally is you. You are in a wrong too right? Until now I have not do anything about the issue yet. I have not apologised or confronted you. But I know that the longer this issue stays on, the longer the situation will stay unfavourable to me. Everyone just listen to what you have told them out there. If all you want is winning, fine you win? but i dont know what is your meaning of winning? Is it the meaning that, oh sock yie apologised to me, she admits that she is in the wrong? Is this really what you want? Then what will happen after that? For the upcoming 1 year we are going to stare at each other in class isit?? Do you really sit and think? If revenge is really what you want then can you do it 光明正大? Dont keep doing so many 小动作 behind my back. If a sorry is what you want then can you aprroach me and tell me that you demand an apology?

I have been thinking these 4 straight days on how to resolve the problem. I am like not even paying attention in class recently, and I am so sorry for those people who are affected....to yiing huey: sorry for bothering you all the time because you are just sitting diagonally behind and I think taht you are the only one that I can trust now looking at the people around me(literally). I really envious you now, looking at you mugging so hard for the exams, you will really do well! and to weiling: sorry for causing you trouble to change place in class because she ask you to do so. to goon: for understanding what happen to me without even me saying...to sharlyn: thankx for always sitting at the 'spectator stand', and also for listening to my complains. ...last but not least to line: thank you for being always there for me. I know this thing affected you a lot and I have been trying not to bother you everytime...but there is no one I can look for in class le...I really hope that in the end your friendship will still last with her. ...and finally to everyone( my seniors, juniors, xin ru and jo) who have encourage me all this time.

Whenever I was about to forget this matter, you will constantly remind me about it. Why? cant you stand in my shoe to think that actually you have done something wrong too? Someone has been asking me to stand in your point of view, I have done that, have you? and what have get in return of that? nothing. I have been thinking of ways to solve this but you are thinking of ways to make it go worse. dont you think so? you are just trying to make everyone know about it and so, what do you get? support for all you have done? cheer for you?

This is just a small matter that evolve to a conflict between 2 person just because of a blog post. I cant differentiate who is right and wrong now because she has the capability, 把黑的说成白的. I have reach my limitations I guess, so I have told line what I have decided to do because that seems to be the only solution now....

这件事将是我一辈子都不会忘记的。我想我跳进黄河也洗不清这个误会。

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