[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Friday, July 17, 2009

[[End=A New beginning~]]

There wasn't test today...and I don't why, I was staring into space during lesson time.... Many things were running through my mind...like for example the handover ceremony and my half-done present for next pres. Even though in the end I still didn't manage to complete it in time, I think you'll like it. haha I thought it was the best present all of all the rest. haha better than the VP one! haha I know what you get, Xue Shi!

I almost murdered Caroline! grr... knowing that I was in a bad mood after recess, she went to hide my black box! Shao Yan was her accomplice(table partner!)...I strangled both of them! I still went to ask Shao Yan where did my box go, she still can tell me, " I don't know, don't ask me!" grrr...now you owe me a Nutella bread for 9 o'clock break. haha I doubt you will remember though... The suay thing you can get at the same time was a paper cut...and then I don't know my same finger got poke by lead or something...it bleed a bit... Sigh...what a bad day it is....it drove me crazy....the black box incident make me not able to pay 100% attention to my half-favourite Chem lesson now. Luckily I still manage to catch the important parts.

Anyway after school, we tricked Mrs Tan into coming to class for next week A.Math test! We said that some people want to ask questions which is true~ hahaha she was in the midst of preparing for our prelim papers, then she rushed up cause she realised that she was late! A few guai people stayed in class to ask her question while the rest went to hide to make it seemed like the usual days when most people went for lunch~ When the cake arrived, those that went into hiding all stood outside the classroom and get ready to sing birthday song. Haha I think we left a memorable day for Mrs Tan today! haha We gave her cards, presents (comic books! her favourite! haha I don't think she read those kinds. I think her choice of comics is like Caroline's Mum. Those ai qing xiao shuo.)

Thankx Regina for putting all these up. Somehow, you always remind me how a councillor of the class should be like. Every time when I strayed from the path of a councillor, you'll pull me back unknowingly. I know I can carry all these things out but due to personal reasons, I didn't. I didn't try to remove that blockade which left me stuck that for one and a half year and it'll continue to, for the rest of these years.... :/

After eating a few mouths of the cake, I walked briskly to Father Barre to meet Gloria and the rest. As Zhi Yi is rushing for third language, so we have to hurry to Bishan! We wanted to eat at Northpoint at first but in the end can't. So we went to Subway~ It cost me a bomb without the student's meal! ...well this is my second time eating it, so I guess once in a while is ok... but my plan to save money was ruined....

Tomorrow I am going to attend the interaction performance with Xue Shi and Yu Ting. I hope that it'll be a fruitful trip. I guess it will be and hopefully you 2 can become the best partners in SNCO~! Jia you!

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Reflection

Finally everything has come to an end, really an end. Even though I still have a month left to be with them as an advisor, I think most of the time they won't need me. So I can just settle down now and focus on my work and nothing else. Just like what Mrs Goh said when she spoke to our class today, "settle down". These two words keep circling in my mind and a series of words of wisdom that she said will follow through. About 100 days left, are you ready for it? 4 weeks left to prelims, are you ready for it? Remove your distractions and let yourself calm down and settle down like the rest. They can do it easily, so can you.

Lately, I always reflect back what I have done for SNCO so far. What have I really left behind and what is the impression of me. What have I done for myself so far? I always said I do things for SNCO but can it be counted as for myself too because I want it to be that way? Everything that I started or planned for CO came with good intentions but everything have the flip side too.
People might not understand the rationale behind it and that is the biggest flaw of mine for not bothering to explain. Well, at least I expected someone to but apparently it doesn't work that way... I always ended up getting unnecessary misunderstandings.

Passion against Leadership. Can a person solely with passion lead CO? How about someone with leadership but no passion? It is not easy to find someone who contains both aspects. It's getting more and more rare each year. So which category do I belong to? Unknown. I once thought that I managed to balance both. It was once like this...until many things that happened changed my mind. Frankly speaking, I am not someone with lots of charisma or having an aura that a leader should possesse and once you are near this person, you can feel the strong sense of dictatorship coming from him or her. 3 people. There are three people around me who gave me that feeling. You can say they are born leaders. While people like us needs to rely on hard work or the long prcoess of grinding/drilling to develop it. Worse still, it might never happen no matter how hard you try.

Succes vs Failure. (to be continue...)

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