[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Monday, March 29, 2010

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...whole body aching after the Hip Hop Groove this morning...

I want to stop thinking so much...~ What for trouble myself...
...just hope that bff can really come true~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:36 PM|

Sunday, March 28, 2010

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I suddenly remembered what you said to me....be optimistic and instead of saying sorry, replace it with thank you. So, many thanks to you~ Arigato.

I suddenly can't link with many people anymore...is it just me?? :/

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:23 PM|

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Dreamcatcher by Secret Garden

Secret Garden - Windancer

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|2:28 AM|

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I've this uneasy feeling...am I too sensitive or what? It seems like you can be happier...

Many thanks to 1 & 3.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:08 AM|

Thursday, March 25, 2010

[[BUGGY]]

I got a feeling that my gastric problem is going to relapse again...
...having my meal order/pattern jumble up these few days...I can feel my intestines oozing acidic juices out every moment....plus all the symptoms that are surfacing... ...I'm going to be so dead....

I pray for good health and good weather tomorrow... I really hope that my hard work paid off....plsss....I beg.... I hope that I will get good results too and have better time management... All these are just simple wishes that everyone wants to have but somehow they just hold a deeper meaning to me...

I hope...

"Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets. ~Arthur Miller"

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:34 PM|

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

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明明一直埋怨没时间，但为何还要...

寂寞...
倾诉...

现在的我都觉得自己很虚假...一直很怕说实话...一直在担忧...却不知自己真正的焦虑是什么...
对于贵人的帮忙，我非常感谢...不想再打扰她们，再让她们为我而忙...

好友的婆婆过世了...我似乎只能在旁为她加油打气...
...脑海中浮现出了当年的片段, 那时的情景...难过，悲伤...

心，始终不能平静...总觉得样样不如人...自信也淡了许多...相信最自豪的热诚再过不久也会消失...失望...
...谁能来拯救这无可救药的人...

你听见了吗？

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:07 PM|

[[Misses...]]

School life is getting dull and boring...but thanks to them for bringing laughters to my life...

However, I still miss them...miss so many people...miss the times...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:46 PM|

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Internet is lagggggginnnngggggg.............
current mood is mmooooddddyyyyyyyy and dddooooooowwwwwwwnnnnnnnn....

What's happening again....

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:10 PM|

Saturday, March 20, 2010

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E-learning portal is horrible....

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:30 PM|

Thursday, March 18, 2010

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back from camp~! Need to rush homework now....~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|7:46 PM|

Monday, March 15, 2010

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...suddenly turn moody again....cause of the weather perhaps? Looking at IVLE, my head will start spinning...not solely because of the messy and unorganised layout that they have but in addition the tons of work we have to complete too.... 'holiday' they call it...'enjoy your long weekends~' is what they say...'remember to take a rest~' they assured...

I just hope that the weather will be fine tomorrow, and that I can enjoy my time cycling along the beach, looking at nice scenaries~ Just by thinking about it makes me feel better~ =) haha

CO 2d1n camp, I hope it will be an enriching and fun-filled camp~ I dont know what expectations to hold but current feeling towards it is neutral...

"I guess I'm numb...making a life out of nothing...is it possible?"

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:45 PM|

Sunday, March 14, 2010

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I was clearing the favourites...haha and I found this...

It was really sad that I couldn find a clearer vid on this...I really like the starting part! =)

still <3 suju~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|6:32 PM|

Monday, March 8, 2010

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Jia you Jia you!!!
Try to keep up with the work, then go ahead of it~ =)

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|6:00 PM|

Thursday, March 4, 2010

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...It's hard to be normal...probably just not used to it...sigh...feel so uneasy...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|6:56 PM|

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

[[Selfish or selfless?]]

I hate to admit that I was a little angry over it...

I just can't help but to get slightly annoy...probably because, like the past, I still dislike the fact that people take up a post for 'back up' as they are afraid they couldn't get into what they really one and not purely because they like the job so much that they want to dedicate their time to it. "Building up the portfolio," that's what most people would say. In the end, they took up '2 seats' and actually their contribution or presence, isn't really significant.

In addition, what about the rule that was set, which says you're not allow to take up any class post for now due to your choice of CCA? It's not that I'm inflexible. However, you just give me an image that you're irresponsible. In my opinion, the image you've portray so far is that you're just not the servant leader kind...at least not the type of leader that I'll follow... I'm actually fine with this if you've shown me that you're capable of doing it... In addition, did you even put in your best efforts before giving up? Probably you were joking at the moment, still, I couldn't help to have this feeling... Even though we did had a small small small discussion...but...grrr...I was slightly displeased with the attitude presented... Sigh...On the other hand, there could only be 3 reasons why am I so into this...
1. All the reason stated above.
2.Ban from getting any post by Mum...(after much thinking for about a week or so...I decided to secretly take on 1 if I can...but well probably too late...because the person took what I want...but even if I wasn't the one involved, I guess I will be unhappy with his attitude and behaviour too...cause of the bolded words...)
3. Unjust ( I somehow still contain that pride which can't be given up easily... :/ which makes me feel bad...)

This is indeed a very small issue but I just can't suppress my emotions...I rather I vent my complaints out now than giving people a black face unknowingly... All the comments sound harsh but that was how I felt... The rest of the people probably see the other side of you or didn't even bother observing human behavious as they were too busy mugging...

Sometimes people tend to bent the meaning of your words/sentence... probably I'm just bad at expressing myself...it worries me even till now... that's why I tend to say sorry many times even if I'm not at fault because I don't know what the person is thinking... People have this habit of not getting the situation right before acting...misunderstandings thus occurs and most of the time you won't be able to clear it up anymore...

Lastly, I guess through this, I get to realise many things too. Many questions that I've been asking myself for the past few weeks have been answered. It could be a good lesson for me too...

Welcome to the ~~JC World~~~ Self-beneficial World~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|6:13 PM|

Monday, March 1, 2010

[[Warmth]]

I had a hard laugh in the library this afternoon~! It's not like someone just said a extremely funny joke but I just can't control my own laughter. It's totally unbearable! Haha~ Worse off, it was me who happen to trigger the giggles/laughter after saying something nonsensical I would say... haha Zhiying and I just can't help it. I even have tears rolling down my cheeks after that. LOL!~ PW was somehow fun thanks to that~ haha

Ah and...I'm running out of vocabs...I seriously need to build up on that if not I'll end up making more silly mistakes...I completely forget everything the teacher had taught us back in SN...

...I didn't like my performance lately ...academic and character wise...It just feels wrong...It is like you're trying to make yourself comfortable in an unfamiliar environment but keeps fidgeting as you try to find the best position/spot that suits you. It simply means 'fitting-in without losing one's identity". It's difficult and it's affecting me badly...with no guidance from anyone...and no one to share my thoughts with like when I was back in SN... As the days go past, I miss SN more and more dearly ... In AJ, there's no such thing as 'sisterly love'...Even though back in the secondary days many didn't really care much about the school values, we're actually carrying it out unknowingly on a daily basis. That's why I was happy and relieve when I received a call from Mag today. Thanks so much dear. Even though I dont usually say this, Love you lots! <3 =) ( I won't get to hear this in JC anymore, I guess...) The first example to prove this was when I had only 2 sweets on V'Day this year... I seriously miss the time when my table had a mountain of Gifts (sweets, letters, cards etc.), flooded from friends~ I remembered I had to bring 2 bags to carry them home~ ...I really miss the old days...~

Things to be done:

-Homework
-Improve in skills
-Planners/Targets/Future Aims
-SNYQ Outing
-SN friends/comm outing
-PYP YQ outing
-Meet up with Qian Ting & probably another one with Ji Inn too? =))
-OG outing~
-PDG outing~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:06 PM|