[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Saturday, November 27, 2010

[[Burnt out]]

Confine in bed for 2 days...I didn't even notice that today's date is 27 November...

Fever for the past 2 days... 36.9 37.2 38.6 38.9 38.9 37.6 37.4 36.9 36.3 36.6 36.7 ...

whatever it is...I'm sorry to boon that we cant meet up today...so sorry... I shall set aside another date for you...

I should go rest somemore if not, I wont be able to take the upcoming intensive prac...lots more to work on...jia you!

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:50 PM|

Monday, November 22, 2010

[[恒]]

夕阳西下，海水打在岩石上。
我一人默默地走在海边，一步步地把自己的脚印烙印在沙滩上。
但不一会儿，海水就涌了上来，冲淡了我的脚印。

倘若人生就像是这一望无际的海边，那该有多好啊！
因为，海水能轻易的抹去别人在你记忆里留下的足迹。
无痛，也无苦。不会有恨或眼泪。

这，或许会比现状好一点。

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:30 PM|

Sunday, November 21, 2010

[[Forgotten.]]

In the middle of the night....what am I doing....

...crying...

It has been a long time since I cry... No friends have ever made me cry before. You're the first one. I guess I am deeply hurt this time. For a moment, I had flashbacks of us in SN. How close we used to be. How many secrets we shared. No matter how many times you told me that I wasn't your best friend, it didn't matter to me. I understand that to you, best friend can only be 1 and someone before me had already occupied it. To me, friends are just friends. All friends are equally important to me. Yes, there are closer ones but it is not easy to reach that stage. To me, you are a close friend indeed. We fight, we quarrel, we ignore, we patch up. It happened quite a few times but that's because we care.

This may sound childish and I might look like a fool now, however, this is just something I believe in in life. I was always told to rank: Family, Friends, CCA, Work, Other commitments. I have the answer within myself. No matter how hard I lied to whoever that ask me, the truth will still stay. That side of me can't change. Friends, something I hold too dearly.

I know it's silly for me to cry over this but the things that happened lately have told me to cherish whatever I have.

It is the feeling of losing something important even though you are still physically there.

"I have not lose you but I lost you."

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:56 AM|

Thursday, November 18, 2010

[[East Coast Park]]

After a BBQ class gathering at Claudia's house yesterday (to celebrate Sok Hui's birthday too), our class went for lunch at Bedok. haha Not that we want it but we AJ J1s have sandcastle building! haha Our class got the afternoon stop. At first we all thought that we were all be bbq-ed under the scorching sun, in the end, we get to manage the breeze near the sea~ haha it was windy, cooling, nice and comfy~ haha (at first...) There was even lightning when we were having our briefing!

Before long, we were all under the hot sun. haha I forget to bring my sunblock cause I rush out of house thinking that I will be late... Well, I am really dead tired now...both legs aching from all the sitting, squatting, walking. haha It was fun over all~! :DD Just that I keep withdrawing money....big hole in wallet!!! keep spending on food and drinks. haha Well, to see how enjoyable it was, check out FB photos! =))

(It was good that tomorrow's outing was changed to sat~ haha I am going to sleep like a log~ (: )

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:02 PM|

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

[[Another...]]

Zeng lao shi passed away this morning. I just received the message. The second one this month. The second one this year too but, twice in a month... Am I at a age of attending funerals now?

Don't know what to say this time round or just didn't want to anymore. I don't want anymore people to leave me. It took me so long to believe that grandma passed away 5 years ago. I remembered there never was a day I wasn't crying when I was at the funeral.

Well, here's what someone SMS me the previous time when she read that Ms Foo passed away:

"...its not easy knowing someone you once known has left you. I have had 6 ppl leaving me since Term 3 and I know it's hard to accept. But as we grow up, we gotta accept what life throws at us (: cheer up! :D "

Thanks lots junior~ haha

Here's a song that I really like now. I can't seemed to get it anywhere...just the title will do I suppose...

《茜色に願ふ》

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:17 AM|

Sunday, November 14, 2010

[[]]

薄桜鬼〜新選組奇譚〜

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|3:08 PM|

Thursday, November 11, 2010

[[OVER]]

PW finally comes to an end with OP exam being the last hurdle to cross today. I was unusually calm this afternoon for the OP. haha to the extend that Priscilla was shocked to see the unpanicky me. haha Well, dont know why but I think most likely thanks to Akash and the group before. It just kind of soothes me(?) when seeing you guys presenting and probably the mind picturing works~ haha imagining the situation how the actual situaion would be like. = )

After settling some admin matters, our group went to Pizza Hut to celebrate. haha it was rather enjoyable. We rarely meet up, so this might probably be the last time? whatever it is, thanks so much people. I am glad to have you guys as my group mates. =) [Zhing!,Priscilla, Akash, Jeffrey]

Arigato~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:42 AM|

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

[[CRASH]]

17 more days to 3 months old lappy just died yesterday. Yes, it crashed after an attack from the deadly virus. I was totally pissed, annoyed, irritated and can't help but feel a bit sad too. Simply, frustrated. All my just neatly organised documents: songs, dramas, work, etc. All gone! How nice! :/ I slept on the sofa yesterday to accompany my lappy, feeding it with my back-up disc but still...those are not updated ones... Worst still, my I&R document which is due tomorrow is one of the victim too...

Haix whatever it is, what has happened had happened. Tomorrow is the final day for PW. OP and hand in I&R. All the best people! Jia You! Please do well~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:05 AM|

Monday, November 8, 2010

[[Interesting website!]]

Got it from Zhing~ hahaha

so cute~

http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:26 PM|

Saturday, November 6, 2010

[[盼]]

渐渐地，我对这些事有所期盼。虽然它现在是无形的，是虚构的，是幻想的，我会静静的等待。等待有一天他的到来。

我不会再排斥它。要是真的没办法，我会接受上帝给我的安排。（虽然不是基督徒，我也有想要那么说的一天。）

~刚好，电台正在播放一首悦耳的旋律。钢琴弹奏。整个人变得很轻松，心情，也变得很愉快。~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:26 PM|

Friday, November 5, 2010

[[Blues~]]

每个人都在为自己的未来努力。我能，却一直停留在原地，似乎没向前迈进一步过。该是时候从过去的悲伤，阴影走出来。展现出自己最酷的一面！

加油！

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:49 AM|

Thursday, November 4, 2010

[[Last day of the week~]]

I am wearing retainers now~ I need to put that on for about a year. haha there's new cleaning to do too~ haix... I want to hurry switch to night wear~ Feeling so uncomfortable now~~

Anw, hope that wed's OP will be of EE standard! :D
Jia You! (pls dont forget your lines anymore~)

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:01 PM|

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

[[Cheers!]]

I had my braces removed yesterday! Collecting my retainers tomorrow~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:41 PM|

[[We will always remember you.]]

A saddening message came later in the morning from Mrs Tan Mui Fong:

I'm sad to inform you that Ms Anna Foo, your chemistry teacher till mid sec 4, has passed away on Mon, 1 Nov. Her cause of death is unknown, though it's suspected cardiorespiratory failure. Please keep her in your prayers. ...

-Message received on 3 Nov 2010, 10.47 a.m. -

The wake is at Mt. Vernon, Upper Aljunied Road, Harmony Room. Service tonight at 8p.m. The funeral is tomorrow, Mandai Crematorium Hall 2 at 4.30 p.m. ...

-Message received on 3 Nov 2010, 12.30 p.m.-

I mass send out to the rest of the classmates first. It was right after my OP rehearsal that I read the message. Emotionless. I double check with my classmates the meaning of cardiorespiratory failure. I didn't want to talk to my good friend about it at first (since our OP wasn't up to standard today...everyone was down) but since I was asking for the meaning. ( I guess out of curiosity, she asked why) . I burst out crying... They ( my pw group) couldn't figure out what I was talking..they probably just hear strands of words coming out of my mouth as I dash out of the classroom before anyone could see my tears. Zhing chase after me...

Even though she wasn't with us for long and we won't really satisfied with her way of teaching, I just somehow felt something inside. The sadness just won't go away at that moment. I am not exactly close to her, still, memories of her gush through my mind. She was in her late 40s if I didn't remember wrongly. Curl hair and likes to wear flowery clothes, usually brown top with white flowers imprint on it. The girls in our class like to laugh at her for that. She just seems like an old-granny when she isn't. Talks like one, acts like one. It was a challenge to focus during her lesson. For someone like me who never ever sleep in class, it was the first time in my life that I can barely stay awake. Still, I did. Despite all these, she was knowledgeable. Undoubtedly. I guess only Sarah could keep up with her questions during class time. Their conversation just totally sounded like alien language to me. When we returned from June holidays, she left the school. No one knew until Mrs Tan told us. She 'left' quietly. No good-byes. No message. No farewell parties. She just disappeared.

Indeed, her time with us is short. However, the times she had together with everyone would not just be erase due to her passing. It will always be there. It is part of our memories. We will always remember you.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|5:46 PM|