[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Sunday, December 26, 2010

[[寂寞寂寞就好- Hebe 田馥甄]]

還是原來那個我不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會还這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果

會有什麼什麼都沒有
早點看破才看的見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好
這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了
想到快瘋掉死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
我總會把你戒掉

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:39 PM|

Friday, December 24, 2010

[[圣诞节！]]

第一次向圣诞老公公许愿。

如果圣诞老人你真的存在，我希望今年的圣诞礼物是明年一整年的幸福，被家人和朋友围绕的幸福！

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:24 PM|

Thursday, December 23, 2010

[[3-some outing!]]

It was supposed to be a YQ outing...but 1 sick,1 boss doesn't allow her to leave, 1 needs to accompany her niece cause it's her birthday. haha Well...Let's just organise another one! haha Hmmm this time round, I better dont spend so much money!!! $$$ I should really go work...

Anw it turn out better than I thought. I can truly be assure that these people will be there for me when I need them. Afterall, we are all born in June or July. haha! We should hurry think of what to do in the next outing. Boon say want to go Sentosa...We will think about it again.. haha Oh and we're meeting on 4th Jan 2011 to go back to St Nicks for orange bowl! =)) I'm really looking forward to it! (that's if I finish my homework by then...tons of thing to do but I'm still so slack!)

Thanks Rebecca and Boon for the wonderful day yesterday!~

It's a good day today! =)

When you said your piece and misunderstandings clear up, it felt really good.

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:51 AM|

Saturday, December 18, 2010

[[Dreamt]]

I wrote...

"Mag and I went to shop for baby clothes...seems like the Kiddy Palace in Causeway. The baby looks so familiar...I was pushing the baby trolley while 黄老师? was carrying the baby in her arms. I tried to play peek-a-boo with him but he started crying out loud. lol~"

How funny can it be~ haha Everything was jumble up. I guess I had too much worries then~ Oh it is said that people can only remember their dreams for 1 min max. The moment you wake up you can still remember everything vividly. The moment you step out of your room, 'poof' everything disappear~ Amazing~

~3 January 2010~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:10 PM|

Friday, December 17, 2010

[[如果...]]

...玩卡赢的几率是我们的爱情指数，那想必我们不适合。

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:29 PM|

[[Looking Back （过去）（Part2)]]

[ 整天待在家里。。。因为朋友昨天的一句话让我闭馆了一个下午。深思。

无意的一句话却拥有着巨大的影响力。这已经不是第一次了，为同样的人、事、物沮丧。尽管无数次的提醒、警告自己, 还是无法阻止自己的脑袋瓜儿去想。答应过自己的事却没能信守承诺，我不也是讨厌这种人吗？

有多久了？一年？七个月前？我自己都不知道。只知道自己一直在为这件事烦。自找麻烦。整个人最近就很闷。脸上挂的全是假笑，嘴里说的都是酸溜溜的话，心里想的总是同样一件没有答案的事。泪水已干了。

我，一直在原地打转了七个月。

以前的我只有课业和华乐。怎么现在多了这么多需要顾虑的事情？有时候真希望从没遇见这些人。。。没碰过那些事。这么想的同时，心里也告诉了我，我也会少了一份快乐。

“人生失败一次，能重新再来吗？”]

能。因为那一次不算失败。=）

~27 November 2009~

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:20 AM|

Saturday, December 11, 2010

[[死神少女[小菊的故事]]]

她做错了。错在于她交错朋友而不是爱上她。错在她不知道自己在做什么、要什么。在不知所措的情况下，盲目地听从她朋友给的劝告与建议。那是因为她信赖她，认为能依靠她、相信她。渐渐演变成 “爱”。即使她的心告诉她那是错的，她也听不见。

她错在被眼前的“爱” 所蒙蔽。

这是我看了那么多级的青少年故事有感而发的。这个故事不管是真实与否，都对我有巨大的影响。小菊，你不应该听信与可可。明知道做的事情是错的就该停止一切，重新来过。我不是支持也不是赞成同性恋。只是，你们因为想摆脱全世界对你们歧视的眼光而选择逃避，做出让家人担心的事，甚至于愚蠢的事。

有时候，难题并不难。当你想通了，找到答案了，你回头看时它自然就变得容易。不要让一时的冲动与情绪化，使你丧失理智。停下脚步，三思而后行。

“人，做错了就该懂得悔改，而不是一错再错。甚至于变本加厉。人，要懂得辨别是非黑白，不该被旁人怂恿。人，不能丧失理性和理智，要懂得心存希望及对未来的憧憬。”

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|1:17 AM|

Monday, December 6, 2010

[[Looking Back. (Ordeal)]]

"It did come across my mind that we could be together. Once? Twice? No, many times.

However, I couldn't persevere... The feelings aren't that strong afterall to put me through this ordeal.

I thought I could be on par...
I thought I could graduate with you...
I thought I oculd at least gaze at you from far, looking at you striving on.

You always know what you want...always seem to have an answer.

I probably won't get any more chances. I know.

I will cherish whatever times we share.

...gazing upon the star... I regretted..."

-written in December 2009-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:28 PM|

Sunday, December 5, 2010

[[Standard Chartered Marathon Singapore]]

The event that made me stayed up the whole night...It let me take a peep into the night life at Orchard Road.

The time was past midnight and the place was still rather crowded for the night. Women in their 20s dressed in tight-fitting clothes, wearing more than 3-inch high heels. Our group was 'camping' outside ION, sitting around the red chairs area and attemping to take a wink at times. Oh we saw a bride and groom taking their photoshoot outside PRADA. haha Well, the photographer doesnt seem very professional though. haha The bride looks great in her white wedding dress~ =)

The cold wind blew strongly that night accompanied with a slight drizzle. It was such a nice weather to sleep on my soft bed at home.... :/

Have you been inside the ION at 3am? haha it is super cool~ We took the lift up to the 3rd level from the lift lobby to use their toilet! haha I like ION's toilet the best! Everything so clean and splendid~ (Y)

Our team officially starts work at about 3.45 a.m. By about 4 a.m, we were holding up the chains waiting for the runners to around. Qian, Rui Jun (new friend found) and I was in charge of Cat 6[runners running for 6hrs and above]. It was chaotic. We have to deal with all kinds of helpers and that the manpower there wasn't sufficient. In the end, 2 Caucasians just broke the chain I was holding and ran ahead when they saw that the people broke the fences put up at the side and squeeze into Cat 5. Situation? Uncontrollable. The rest just follow suit. I was almost trampled over by the large group! pufft

Anyway, when I came home this morning. I was amazed by how awake I still can be. I went to bathe, wash up, cook noodles. Attempt to use com but fail. I just slept for 6hr straight, missing my lunch. haha It was the best 'nap' ever~ (Y) :D

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:51 PM|