[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Sunday, June 26, 2011

[[一颗不坚定的心]]

I know mum will be disappointed when she sees my results, but I will do my best for As. Really.

Pls Jia you no matter how hard it will be because you drop yourself into this state. Blame nobody. Don't think about how great you are in the past. Don't compare yourself with others because your opponent is yourself. As long as you win over the 'dark side':the laziness, greed, daydream and all evil thoughts, you will be able to accomplish what you call 'you've done your best'. Please show yourself that you can do it. Please uphold who you are. Do it for your sake and no others (though I really want to say, 'Mum, this is for you. I don't want to disappoint you. You gave me faith and trust. I believe that you didn't want to give me pressure or stress because you know I can't take it ever since secondary school. I will always break down in tears during mid-year because I can't complete my work or task even though I did tried my best. Ever since that I have a habit of slacking a little by little. I have a habit of not doing my best in everything because I am tired of it and the people around me is not giving their 100%. I was curious about their lifestyle and so I chose to live their way for a moment and I couldn't get myself back until now. However mum, I want to go back to my old self then. The one who doesn't care about anything outside my world but only people inside my circle of concern. I want to live my life to fullest again. Not just with virtual world (games videos, dramas, shows) but with what I can do in real life with my own power. The first that I want to do now is score well for As. I really want to give it my best and have no regrets. After that, I will tell you what my dreams are and what I want to do to accomplish it. I know it is going to be a difficult journey. I have to really give my all if I want to catch up with others. I still believe that I am not dumb. It is just that I am not working hard enough. I will prove myself right this time that I can do it and not give up half-way because I found my goal in real life. Although I am still unsure if that is really my ultimate goal, but for now, it is. And with this drive, I believe I can go far. If I can overcome this dilemma, I believe that I will be able to overcome any obstacles in future because it shows that I have pick myself up and I will not let myself down again.

With that, this will probably be my last post till after As. Jia You, Wong Sock Yie! Fulfill your dream this time round! Don't let yourself down again!

Happy birthday to you too~ :)

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