[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Thursday, November 3, 2011

[[This moment...]]

By the time this is posted on the World Wide Web, the countdown timer on my phone would have drop to '6'. Yup, 6 more days till the start of a War. A fight that will ultimately determine my fate, my life. It seems that I have put it on a too serious note but no.

I wish I can put my mind off these thoughts too, that 'if I didn't well this time round, I will be dead meat because is As!', 'What would others think? Disappointed faces of my teachers, families, friends and myself?', 'If I had been afraid to be disappointed in myself, shouldnt I be working hard now or even 120 days before?' ecetra. I have come up with 100 over questions (marks) by the time now...about all the possible conclusions and happenings that have or could happened by now and at the end of the 20 days war.

After taking a look at the countdown timer, actually once the war starts, it ends rather quickily and I myself know clearly that if I really try very hard now, I really might be able to make it. At least, at the end of the day, I can very much say that I have done my best, really my best. I want to have no regrets this time round but it seems so hard. Funny right? "IF you wanna have no regrets, just try your my best NOW~ as simple as that! What is stopping you from doing that now? Trap in your own thoughts?!" My reply will be 'I don't know.'

Darkness. Could that be a possible answer? When night comes, my heart always tremble with fear because another day is wasted again. Everyday feels like this. There is darkness glooming in my heart now that stops me from doing the right things. Not like I am doing the wrong things but it prevents me from carrying out my duties as a student, it is preventing me to fulfill what I should do in order to have a better future for myself. Am I rebellious now? Coming up with a lot of excuses and not being truthful to yourself. Why not just admit that you are lazy rather than saying that "Oh~ I am too busy with ....and ....."

You are afraid because you have this image in your mind that already tell/show you your consequences if you did not make a rightful choice now. And you know that as the days draw closer, the probability of that image occuring would be higher each day. You know how to think, but you are NOT PUTTING YOUE WORDS/THOUGHTS INTO ACTIONS.

Wong Sock Yie! You better do something within this 6 days if not, you will really regret it in future!

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:11 AM|